misery
Saturday, 8 August 2015
Hey there, it's been a long time since I updated huh? I've been so busy with school and life. But for this post, I'm going to write about my friends. It's embarrassing actually. But whatever.
Oh hey
there, are you reading this?
First of
all, I’m sorry if lately I’ve been ignoring you. I don’t know whether you care
or not. Because you two looks more comfortable being around each other than
being with me. I’m sorry if I’m a burden for your relationship.
I miss both
of you tbh. I mean, the old us. I wish I can turn back time. Lol who am I kidding.
I will never get to turn back time. But do you wanna know the real reason why I
keep running away from you?
“Um, should
I say or should I not?” I’ve been thinking whether I should tell you the reason
why. Because for you, it might be a little childish. Even for me actually.
Okay, here’s the reason why. It’s because I felt so left out.
I don’t
want to tell you about the details why I felt so left out. Because you’d say, “why
don’t you speak some more? and just talk whatever you want. don’t be a coward”,
so no. I won’t tell you.
You know
guys, I thought we’re family. Guess not. You weren’t even being yourself in front
of me. You talk bad behind me isn’t? It’s okay. I already get used to this.
Being deceived by your own best friend. But you know, you can say whatever you
want in front me. If I make you angry, then tell me. If I owe you, tell me. If I
make you feels uncomfortable, tell me. Don’t keep me in the dark guys.
Oh ya, even
nowadays, you didn’t tell me any secrets. Am I stranger now? Hmmm c’; I tried
so hard to accept the fact that we’re not close anymore. But I just can’t. I
miss you and I love you guys.
Walaupun
aku berkawan dengan org lain, you guys are still in my mind.
Are you
finished? Thank you for giving me your time to read this shit. Em don’t
whatsapp me please. If you’ve read this, please just.. em just keep in your
mind. I’m going to delete this post after 2hrs from now. And bila jumpa dekat
sekolah nanti, please act like nothing happened eh? Malu lah haha.
I'm sorry for everything.