luck is not on my side.
Tuesday, 27 October 2015
Hola,
so I'm here just to rant about my life.
Infinite
are having their world tour right now. They may or may not be coming to
Malaysia. It’s all about luck for us.
But they’ll be coming to our neighbor like Thailand, Philippine, Singapore
and Indonesia.
I’m so
upset I couldn’t come to their world tour concert. I’ve been wanting to meet
them since 4 years ago. Actually, 2 years ago, they managed to come to my
country to do their world tour. But I was involved in an accident and had my
leg casted.
I guess I really
have no luck huh?
Unlike me,
my sister is also an inspirit. She get to attend their concert… and this time
because Infinite couldn’t come to Malaysia. She bought ticket to fly to
Singapore and Indonesia and attend their concert at there. I couldn’t come
because I have an examination at the moment. Also, I am not rich like her.
I will cry
every freaking time I remember my luck. Why do things always didn’t go as I want
it to be? People will judge me if they read this right? Because who in the
world will waste their tears to K-pop idols? It will be only me then. K-pop idols
are not robots made by the company. They are human with dream. They had to go
through so many shit just to get up there, especially Infinite.
In order to
get popular easily, you have to come from the big company. But Infinite came
from a small company. The CEO of the company even had to put his house on sell
just to promote them. And in the end, they managed to get popular with their
talents and also, a little bit help of haters spreading shit about them. Of
course, not to forget their fans. They
had to go through so many hate just because they come from a small company.
Even after
they’ve been through all that, they’re still here stood strong even though they’ve
breakdown few times in front of us. I guess that’s maybe the reason why I
admired them.
I used to
be so confident to walk with my head held high whenever I’m in public, school
or just somewhere. But then, something happened. So I had to change my school. When
I was in my new school, I tried to be friendly with everyone. The problem is everyone
seems so distant but, they still responded to me whenever I asked a question. But
till one day come, I got avoided by everyone. Since then, I’ve been attacked,
bullied and all.
I was
depressed… I still am. I tried to make myself happy by watching funny videos.
After I watched countless of not-so-funny videos, I bumped into “Ranking King
Infinite”. I watched the videos from ep 1 till the finale episode. They attracted
me, from so many ways.
Since then,
I’ve been following them. Their music soothes my broken soul. Also, they taught
me how to be confident in myself. Don’t let other words hurts me in any way. So
I was able to rise and smile to them. Who is them? People who constantly hurt
me emotionally and physically. Yeah, them.
I want to
meet Infinite and continue supporting them. I want to show to them that because of
them I was able to smile happily without having the sadness behind my eyes. I want
to show them I will continue to support them if there’s no one else wants to
support them; be fan. I’ll be there.
…but I guess
I have no chance. Sorry for my bad English. They are not my mother tongue
language so forgive me. Goodbye, assalamualaikum.