advice
Thursday, 17 November 2016
There was a time where I feel
so down and I need to find something to motivate me. I somehow came across a
video called “how to take note smartly”, and I like that kind of videos to be
very honest. Somewhere in the middle of the videos, that girl said something
going to university is an exciting experience. But first of all, you got to
prepare your physical and mental. Because in universities, anything can happen.
I think that is a brilliant
advice.
If one cannot control her
emotions very well, she might ended up screw herself up. I applied the advice
to myself.
When I’m in school few months
ago, I had a few moments where I feel like I’m being held down by emotions. It
makes me wants to avoid everyone. I even ignored my friends, and went ahead by
myself. I have lots of bad thoughts during that moment.
It was painful, and tiring.
You want to talk to others but
you feel like you’ll be judge if you open your mouth and say something. You want
to talk about feelings that has been troubling you. But you just couldn’t find
the right words. You ended up said “nothing, I forgot what I was about to say
anyway.” It was frustrating and sad. I couldn’t do anything with the feeling
that has been controlling me. It’s just… there.
Somehow I manage to break down
the wall by myself, and I started to do things that I couldn’t do when that
“thing” possessed me. Is possessed even the right word for it? I once tried to
explain about that to my friends. But I ended up tell them, “If something
happens to me, forgive me. If you think I’m being a bitch for no reason and out
of nowhere. I’m sorry. Just ignore me, okay” Yup, I told them exactly like
this. They were puzzled at first, but after that they just agreed and called me
weirdo. Lol
Now, I’m in the last month of
being in school. After this, I’ll be 18 and I’m not going to school anymore.
Means I finished my high school. I can’t wait to go to work; to know more
people. Just by the thought of it, makes me jumping in joy. Totally can’t wait!