new year, new job
Saturday, 13 January 2018
Hi everyone.
I want to write something serious but when I look at the gif, all those thoughts disappeared in a thin air. Actually I was going to update my blog at the end of december last year. But I don't know what to write, there's so much going on in my head but I can't type it down.
I added another gif because I couldn't concentrate on my writing because of that gif. I thought about removing it but removing it means you can't see it, so I let it be. Aren't I kind? Hehe praise me please.
Look at the title, yeah new job! I used to work at Shell before but now I'm going to work at another company to gain some experience and knowledge. Work is tiring guys but study is even harder. I had this thought that if I go to applied job interview and if I didn't get accepted I'm going to further my studies.
Study is not my thing, because I always get panic attack whenever I have to do presentation or when I have to take an examination. I hate it, yup freaking hate it. That's the reason why I still didn't further my studies. But nobody in my family knows about this.
That's not the only thing. I'm also nervous and afraid to make and meet new friends. You must've wondering how do I cope with my anxious in my workplace. Honestly, I myself, don't know too. It's stupid, they think it's stupid to feel nervous about that, yup I think I'm stupid too.. but what can I do?
Okay so yeah last Thursday, I applied job at somewhere and I got accepted. But the thing is I might get transferred to I don't know where. They didn't tell me yet, and if I got transferred somewhere far away from home, I have to stay at hostel. That's the problem.
Being a very manja kid dalam rumah tu, I never got the chance to stay at hostel. So I never know what kind of thing happen there, so right now I'm so anxious. I don't know what to do. I've been thinking about this ever since they told me that I might be transferred. Before this, I was thinking "hostel apa dehal en? I'm fine with that" but when this happened, I seriously can't stop thinking about this. Millions thoughts is running around in my head right now.
I couldn't talk about this to anyone because they are going to make fun of me so I don't need another thing to think about over and over again. To whoever read this, I'm sorry for wasting your time. Have a good day.
Everything is going to be fine right? I might not get transferred but I still should be prepared for the worst. Everything is going to be fine. Yup, everything's fine.